I don't know why I've been so paranoid about the internet lately, but I've been shying away from it. I honestly can't remember the last time I opened my laptop for anything other than some quick emails.
I was freaking out about my job search and thought I shouldn't jinx it with anything that could be taken the wrong way. I have a hard time looking at my own writing and getting the tone, so I didn't want one blog post to mess up my chances at a job. Plus I had a very hard time adjusting to regular life.
Something about leaving MIT left me in a huge funk. I went from 100 mph to 0 really fast and it felt like hitting a wall. After graduation my lease in Boston was up and with no where to go, Doug and I went to live with my parents in New York. Ouch, huge blow to my ego.
I thought MIT would solve all my problems for me and that employers would fight for my attention. I thought that I'd immediately move somewhere amazing after graduation and have adventures to brag about.
The reality has been that I've been unemployed at my parents' house for 3 months, and for a go-getting that can hit you hard. Honestly there were a few days where I had a hard time getting out of bed. After making it 4 years through school, not landing an immediate job was crushing.
But you know what, it was ok. I caught up on sleep, played with my dog and hung out with high school friends I haven't seen in years. Guess what, they were in the same boat. I was surprised to learn how many people from my high school class were living in Manlius with their parents doing the exact same thing I was.
Now I'm grateful for the break, because it gave me time to find an amazing job. Next month I have the opportunity to live out one of my dreams to move to the Rocky Mountains! Doug and I will be relocating to Idaho so I can work for the Department of Energy!
Get ready for some cross-country stories. Also remember, if you're chilling out unemployed, there is a light at the end of the tunnel.